Stranded

I think I have inferiority-complex.
Sheesh. I hate it how my brain functions in that way.
I hate it how I chain thoughts together. I hate the feeling I am experiencing right now. I hate all of this. Why do I have to be like this? Sometimes I even wonder why I have to be myself because I really hate being myself. (At least for the past consecutive three days) And everytime I set my mind to achieve something, I have to lose something. Yeah that kind of 'in order to gain, you have to lose' kind of thing. Maybe I'm just not good at letting things go. Because I can't. I really can't. It's not that I have never tried. I tried but I always end up pulling things back together and it becomes a stupid repetitive cycle. I know I'm probably not making any sense right now but I don't care. I guess no one can ever feel the pain I'm feeling now. It is so awful and I am on the verge of breaking down. But what's the use of breaking down? All of this will still remain here. Get out of my mind, will you?